What is love?

Love is defined in different ways by different people...but does a couple know when they are in love? Or are they in love? Can u love someone when their heart is not even there with u? You think u "love" them cause maybe u have feelings for them but a friend kind of love or maybe cause u been with the person too long... or maybe u feel guilty and u try to make him/her happy, but u dun't do it cause u love them, u do it cause u feel bad...

I can't believe you would do me like this,
Don't lie to me and say it started out as an innocent kiss,
Out of all the things we've been through this one was the most tears I've had to cry,
But lately all I've been doing is telling myself holding my head up and being strong is something I must try,
You were the one that said our love would last no matter who or what we had to fight,
But lately I've seem to just be fighting back my tears at night,
Man, I remember when we held each other tight,
And how we used to plan our future together in life,
But lately all I've been planning are ways to stop feeling for you,
So that this pain will go away from what your words just put me through,
You keep on telling me that your sorry and you wish this could all be a lie,
But lately all I can seem to say to you is good-bye,
I'm saying good-bye because this time my heart took the most hurtful hit,
Why didn't anyone tell me love ends up like this?

The Promise He Couldn't Keep

He told her that he loved her,
And that he always would,
He also said he loved her,
More than any man ever could.

She let herself believe him,
And loved him with all her heart,
She truly thought he meant it,
And trusted him from the start.

But then slowly over time,
A pattern began to form,
And love's sunny skies faded,
Becoming a silent storm.

He would go out more often,
And say "I love you," a whole lot less,
He was changing way too much,
Leaving her a broken mess.

He no longer seemed so caring,
And didn't talk to her that much,
She missed the old him so badly,
She longed for his loving touch.

But he seemed to have forgotten,
His promise of "I love you."
His "forever" felt so fake,
She no longer knew what to do.

She slowly came to grips,
That their love was no longer deep.
She resigned herself to knowing,
She was the promise he couldn't keep.

I thought you were the one...i guess i was wrong

Definition of Love : Everyone defines love as being the "butterflies" or the obsessive feeling of constant thoughts of their other. Why does it have to be the rapeful kiss, or the groping touch? Why can't it be the protective arm around the waist, or the kiss ontop of your head? Everyone percieves love as that rush of "good feelings" you get every single day, but its not. It's a committment you work toward, give your all for. You can wake up everyday loving that person and accepting who they are, but if you honestly are just doing it because thats what people do in relationships...don't go -through- with it. If you're not willing to hear and LISTEN to that person, understand and advise them, comfort and console them...why bother? Love for me isn't kissing under the stars and it doesnt take a week to build. Love for me is the feeling I can be -me- with that person no matter, differences and similarities. I'm not judged nor critisized for who I am or who I want to be, but loved because my dreams and goals are admired by my love. Love for me is knowing no matter what, anger or none, that my significant other will be there. It's the spontaneous affection and persistant feeling of protection I get, and the reassuring words to satisfy my emotional needs. It's having the courage to say "we'll make it", and even more having the determination to go through with it. It's the devotion and consideration for each other's lives and feelings. It's knowing and trusting that no matter what, he will try just as hard as you to stand together whenever you fall together. Love is honesty and loyalty, now ask yourself again...do you have love? No second thoughts.

Thanks for everyone who came out to the dinner and to my birthday party!  We had good food at the Thai restaurant... I had a huge piece of minty ice cream cake, couldn't even finish it... Yummy! Redemption wasn't a big place... but it had a little cozy area with a dance floor... Had good music throughout the nite... Was drinking and dancing nonstop on the dance floor... I realized how much I loved dancing... Need to go out to dance more so it can be a good burn out calories workout for me... LOL......I guess I burned a good amount of calories on my special day... Who wants to come and join me in dancing? Haha... Thanks for my special close friends who stayed late partying with me to have a good time eventho they were really tired... Love u girls!

I realized I am getting old and I guess its that time when I got to think about marriage, career, college, moving out etc... to see what I want in the future... Lots of people this year got married and now I wonder when I wanna get married and where I would have it... But I give myself a year or two before I keep myself in lock mode... LOL... Anyways, thats one of my thoughts... In search of apartments still... Got ditched by one of my friends from moving out with me due to some problems with her family...... Applying for college... and hopefully get to go back to school in the fall...Still in the process of passing my exams...

Life is full of decisions and choices...

Here are some updates of what's been going on:

Working the same as usual...Same routine everyday... It gets to be very tiring and boring...Thinking of taking a vacation break soon...

Been to a few birthday dinners this month... Somehow a lot of people or at least the people I know are born in this month...There will probably be more near the end of the month... Meaning====> going to go really broke... Err....

Sunday, went to a very very beautiful wedding in LI... with a waterfront view... So pretty there, with a beautiful weather... A nice day to get married... Wow, can't believe he got married already and he's only 26...I guess it is true love if people get married quite early especially for a guy... It started off with a ceremony with the bride walking down the aisle... exchanging rings and a little speech from the priest... which ended pretty quick... Then cocktails afterwards with sushi/sashimi, lobsters, shrimps, and lot more food... Then a 3 course brunch...Had some interesting entertainment during the brunch... with dancing, jokes, laughter etc... The MC chose one of the groomsmen to do Fear Factor or American Idol... and the audience chose Fear Factor for him... so it happens to be my table to make the specialty drink for him.... It included butter, rose petal, salt, bread, and some others which I forgot... Happens that my friend, Jamie, gave me the bread to put it into the glass and at the end, the groomsmen said the bread was the worst part of the drink... Haha.... and then everyone started to blame on me for it... Thanks a lot, Jamie.... Haha... I laughed so hard that tears were coming out... But besides that, throughout the whole wedding it was so beautiful... Now it makes me wonder when I will get married... and I would say that would be a really nice place to have a wedding... Maybe I will consider it... Hehe...

Here are some pictures of the wedding:

Some updates:

Still looking for apts to move out... Hopefully I will move out by the end of this year...

One of my ex-coworkers quit and found a better job... Wish her the best of luck...  Looking to hire for a new group teacher in my daycare... Anyone whose got a Bachelor degree in Education and looking for a job... Let me know... My director gave me a choice if I wanna stay in the classroom I am in now or go to another classroom with kids older than the ones I am with now... I think i decided to stay in the classroom that I am with now since I am use to it already...

The children had a BBQ at my daycare on Thursday... They seem like they all had some fun... Hopefully we can do this more often...

Friday, went to diinner near 34th St in Koreatown for a friend's birthday then off to my friend's coworkers apt... It was so nice... Living on 5th Ave near Times Square... But $3000/month... Cost way too much... Dun't know how she got all that money to pay for it... Glass windows all over her apt... Could look out to see Manhattan's night life... Could even see the Empire State Building from her apt... It was nice... We chilled at the rooftop of the building... Chatting and having a good time...  But wished I can have an apt like that...

The summer is almost over... Err... Going to go back to the cold days soon... Err... September will be here... Will be attending a lot of friend's bday this month... I think I might be broke this month... hehe...

Decided to continue my graduate school in the spring semester at Hunter College... Going to go to work and go to evening classes... Man, it will be so hectic for me...But after graduating from grad school, it will make me really proud of myself...Graduating with a Master's degree... Besides, need to go back to school to work on my brain cells cause its been put off for about 3 years already... haha...

A friend of mine is getting married next month... Can't wait... Been waiting to go to a friend's wedding for a very long time... Haha...

I guess thats it for now... Until next time...

EDIT: Someone should remember who paid for things that she wanted when she didn't have a job... Someone should remember who hooked her up with a job with connections... If it wasn't for me... then u wouldn't be so lucky! Whose the one that brought u to places if it wasn't for my friend's planning...The list goes on... Should appreciate the things the person had done for u and respect the people you have in life!!

Pics:

                            Children having fun at the BBQ

    Co-workers trying to shoot into the basket... hehe...

                                             Kel's birthday

                              Kel's pimping... Surrounded by girls!

This is pretty true if u read it and understand it:

A student asked, "What gender is 'computer'?"

Instead of giving the answer, the teacher split the class into two groups, male and female, and asked them to decide for themselves whether" computer" should be a masculine or a feminine noun.

Each group was asked to give four reasons for its recommendation.

The men's group decided that "computer" should definitely be of the feminine gender ("la computadora"), because:

1. No one but their creator understands their internal logic;

2. The native language they use to communicate with other computers is incomprehensible to everyone else;

3. Even the smallest mistakes are stored in long term memory for possible later retrieval; and

4. As soon as you make a commitment to one, you find yourself spending half your paycheck on accessories for it.

(THIS GETS BETTER!)

The women's group, however, concluded that computers should be Masculine ("el computador"), because:

1. In order to do anything with them, you have to turn them on;

2. They have a lot of data but still can't think for themselves;

3. They are supposed to help you solve problems, but half the time they ARE the problem; and

4. As soon as you commit to one, you realize that if you had waited a little longer, you could have gotten a better model.

The women won